Who am I

Who am I?

Sometime, i am a psychologically inconsistent person.
In some condition, i feel so alim. But sometime i feel so down. Now, all I need is the spirit of praying. And I wanna get the real motivation, a sincere proposition.

I wanna get what she got. I wanna feel what she felt. I wanna do what she did. and also, i wanna be better than her.

Pheww.... I think i almost do the second failure. The wrong way as i've done to her. Why i can't resist this desire. Why i always want to get these "happiness"(s) earlier. Why i don't think greater goal. Ukhrowi Way... Why?

And why ?